[The handwriting is still a bit shaky, but not badly. It's not pride that fuels his words, not really.]

I fear I am more suited to make some attempt at being a chaplain than I am to most other things I have done with my life thus far.

[...Perhaps it will do no harm to confess himself slightly:] I thought, once, that I might like to serve the Church, yet I was, then, not able to do so. Perhaps [another pause in the writing, another hesitation] that is my purpose here. Perhaps God has brought me to this place to do such a thing.